Cliche pal, no need to feel bad, as the cliche goes, it may well be "blessing in disguise."
When I first started N+1, I kept checking the classifieds, set up ebay alerts, Craigslist etc. It was time consuming, and if I am being honest, sometimes counter-productive and can become addictive.
These days, I don't even worry about it, just continue to enjoy riding what I already have and if something pops up and I happen to be at the right place at the right time, I will grab it, if not, no biggie, back to riding as usual. This approach yielded better results and made me a happier camper.